A surprise beginning
October 7, 2009. During last night prayer group, again God has built me through His vision. We have been servicing the needy, those who are cursed, who have inherited sickness through their genes, who are cursed with poverty, etc. It was such a coincidence that I was in the same group with the pastor. She led our group and told us to pray to God for vision, and revealed to us the person we will serve and what is his/her curse.
Later, God revealed to me the ‘accident’ curse. I felt this person has the ‘accident’ curse within the family. I then asked God to reveal to me who is ‘the person’, and I saw it was a lady, long hair, slim, approximately 5’4” tall, just about same height as me.
After prayer, pastor invited all those who would like to be prayed over to come forward. There were around 10 people in front of us. The pastor who stood next to me asked me softly if I saw ‘the person’ in my vision. I glanced through, and spotted a lady standing at the right corner, and in my heart, I knew it was her! I went to her and asked her for her needs and if there was any curse within the family that needed to be prayed for.
At that moment, I wanted to ask her if there is any ‘accident’ related curse; but I was too weak, I just kept my mouth shut, and told myself: I will just listen to her first!
Her eyes were tearing and she answered: “My daughter got into an accident, and she passed on. Then, my husband also got into an accident! I think we have ‘accident’ curse in our family.
I inhaled, heavy heartedly I blame myself inside my heart! I have too little faith…
After praying for her, I sat down at a corner and pondered for a while, I was tearing… I blame my own consciousness, after encountering so many testimonial, I am still weak, I dare not voice out what I saw; besides, I was tearing because even though I am weak, God still keeps giving me vision, and patiently building up my confidence.
后来，上帝启示我“意外”的咒诅，我感觉到这个人的家中有“意外”咒诅的遭遇。再来，我就问上帝是谁，求神给我启示，我看见一个女的，是长头发的，身材瘦瘦的，身高大概有5‘4，跟我的高度差不多。
经过祷告后，牧师就邀请那些有需要的人出来。在我的面前，有大概10个人左右，站在我旁边的牧师就小声的问我有没有看见上帝所启示的那个人。我一眼看过去，眼目停留在右边最不起眼的角落的那个女人，心中就有感动，就是她了！后来，我就到她面前，问她有什么需要/家庭流传的咒诅需要祷告的。
那一霎那，我很想开口问她是不是有关“意外”的咒诅，但是软弱的我却把口闭起来，心想：听她讲什么先吧！
她的眼睛带点红和眼泪地回答说：“我的女儿遇到车祸，丧失了生命。后来，我的丈夫也遇见了车祸！我想我的家中有意外的咒诅。”
我吸了一口气，心中带着无奈的心情，内心再次的被责备！我太小信了...
为她祷告后，我坐在角落边深思了一会儿，流泪了... 流泪是因为良心责备，透过了这么多次的见证，我还是一样的软弱，不敢把看见的说出来；另外，流泪是因为虽然自己很软弱，但是神还是一样的启示我，百般忍耐的建立我的信心。
耶稣真的很爱很爱我，我原是一个罪人，完全不配做神的仆人。但是因为他爱我，为我钉死在十字架上，赎去了我所有的罪，让我更加能够坦然无惧的来到他的宝座前来亲近他。谢谢你的爱耶稣！谢谢你...
